February 03rd, 2011

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they say the first step to dealing with your problem is accepting it first.. I accept that i have SAD disease.. 

these last two days of beautiful sunshine only confirmed it today.. when i woke up to grey clouds.. and NO motivation.. before i knew it.. it was noon and I hadn’t even brushed my teeth or attempted to do anything.. the tiredness is taking over my whole body.. it went from mental exhaustion.. just to all over body.. trying to peel myself off the couch every 5 minutes for a 2 year old that needs something is draining..  I even sent out an SOS text to the daddy.. I was losing my mind and my poor sweet 2 year old was getting the brunt of it.. I just wanted to lock myself in the bathroom and scream at the top of my lungs.. fearing what this would do to her childhood memories.. I instead took some deep breaths and read a book with her.. 

I know that life cannot happen with out the sour to balance the sweet.. but oh how I love the sweet.. walks.. sunshine.. coffee shops.. and just getting out of the house before ten feels amazing.. I think me and olive are both suffering from cabin fever.. 

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