movin on up..

January 30th, 2011

so we finally made the transition.. Olive is in a big girl bed.. I knew I wanted it soon so that she would know that the little baby is coming.. and would soon be taking over her crib.. so when we started clearing out the nursery room. I figured.. what better time.. what I wast expecting is how sad it would be.. I mentally have not factored in that I am having another little baby.. I have only bought one thing for her.. a little yellow giraffe.. and other than that.. I just associate being uncomfortable with this pregnancy.. so when I started taking apart her crib.. it just kind of hit me.. wow.. she is moving on up.. and this new baby is coming!! which than lead to pulling out all her old tiny preemie baby clothes.. reminiscing on ones I had forgot about.. and started getting excited about outfits the new baby would soon be squeezing into!

her first nap was a huge success.. so I can guarantee night time will not be as smooth..  I put her in her bed while Dust grabbed her bottle.. and all I heard was

NO NO NO.. no way.. 

and than she ran into the new room and stood by the crib pieces.. I had this image in my mind of the next month transitioning.. thankfully once daddy came and tucked her in.. she was loving it..

"so fun in my big girl bed"

phew.. she was out like a light. and snoring logs in minutes.. the cutest part had to be when she woke up.. and we could hear her start playing.. and than these tiny little fingers started coming from under the door.. it was the first time I had seen it.. and I couldn’t wait to open the door for snuggles!

we cancelled our babysitter tonight for some family time.. and we took Olive bowling with us.. the perfect place for a two year old to hang out.. and scream and run around.. her favorite part was this.. 

and helping daddy bowl.. 

and than I kicked Dustins but and won another full body massage! that is all I’m betting these days.. my body needs it!

there’s my 18 pound bowling ball!!

we had a great little family night.. got the nursery started.. and now I feel like this one is really coming.. and I want to enjoy as much Olive/mama time as I can.. I am trying to not get frustrated and let her do her thing.. which is everything as of late.. shoes.. crayons.. stickers.. and swimming.. my baby is turning into a little girl.. and I am trying to let it happen gracefully and smoothly.. but I smell something terrible coming.. 

kissing cousins..

January 29th, 2011

wow.. I cant believe its already January 29th!! Yesterday me and Olive packed up for an impromptu trip to Canada for Winnys birthday.. I saw impromptu.. because I 100% didn’t know if I would physically make it up.. I have been so tired these last couple of days.. and I fear my nesting buzz is gone.. I actually fell asleep on the couch cuddling with Olive the other day .. and woke up to her shaking her m&m potty training chocolates in front of my face.. (I was only out for a minute).. and so when I woke up Friday morn.. I had my morning joe surge.. and started to pack.. I knew if i waited any longer.. the window would close.. and it would be a home day.. 

I am really glad I went up.. I got to see my fam for the first time since christmas.. and Olive needed to be with her cousin to celebrate his big 02!  

I die when I look at photo one.. for two kids who used to never play together.. (all Olives doing) now.. she cant get enough of him.. she looks like she is stalking him.. and he knows she is behind her!!  In the second photo.. I asked for her to go stand by him so I could take a picture.. 

than I asked Olive to go give him some birthday kisses.. thinking she would 100% not do it.. and boy was I wrong.. about 10-15 times.. she walked over humming a kissing noise.. and he sat there all excited.. welcoming the kisses! and so.. kissing cousins was brought to life.. Winston was laughing hysterically as Olive chased him around wanting more.. 

it was so sweet.. we ate some pizza.. and called it a day..

and thank you to my mama who brought this into my life.. ahh.. Dustin informed me I was not allowed to hang it anywhere in the house.. so right smack dab on the fridge it shall go!!

and thank you to Kelly Hampton for her last blog entry. that woman can get my motivated like no other!

every time you see a mama shining in one area, I promise you, there’s shadowy areas that she’ll need to tend to later..

ahh.. time for bed!

Happy Birthday Winny :)

January 28th, 2011

this has always been my favorite photo of you!!

Happy Birthday little man!.. Olives cousin born exactly 2 months apart.. we like our 28’s.. enjoy your whole day.. and if your mama puts a Thomas the train Safeway cake in front of you.. don’t eat it all.. you wont feel good after.. just ask olive ;)

Love your Aunty.. Uncie D and baby ulf

black swan..

January 27th, 2011

my friend had emailed me earlier in the week asking if I wanted to go to a movie this week.. and unfortunately.. no babysitter.. but than plans changed and it was a later movie.. closer to home. so I brought my jammied up peanut to Bostons where she hung with daddy for an hour while he worked.. (I am sure he was thrilled ;).. and off I headed to the movies! it was a much needed distraction.. to me.. one of the best parts of being child free.. is the car ride.. no dvds to fiddle with.. no bottles being strewn about the car.. or get me out of here yelps.. it was just me.. and my bottle of water.. and music.. cranked.. LOUD! I love to hear my music.. loud so I can sing at the top of my lungs and wait for the next car to notice how funny I look.. thankfully with the invention of the blue tooth and head sets.. I will randomly pretend I am just talking to someone on the phone.. but I think they know.. 

I arrived at cinebar..  and found our seats.. the nice thing about these “new”cinemas that I go to now.. is that the rush isnt there.. not like this time..  your goal now is just to get there.. buy a ticket.. and than you order from your seat.. its magical.. 

again I sat beside some old woman who was alone who looked like she used to be a dancer.. and also looked like she wanted to have the chair open beside her.. but not tonight.. we found our seats.. and the movie began.. 

I won’t say to much.. except wow.. it was messed up.. I had gone into it knowing that.. and I always appreciate a good dance movie.. but holy.. my eyes could barely handle all the juggling the camera was doing..  and lord knows how much a painful cuticle hurts.. and to see her rip them off.. almost made me lose my chicken fingers and fries.. my favorite part had to be the ending.. where she finally cracks.. and the feathers look like they are coming through her skin.. wow.. it was perfect.. I always leave those movies wishing I had taken more dance classes.. not just tap where I was a gangster in a mens size 42 suit that we found at value villiage the night before.. and my pants were bouncing around hooked onto suspenders.. making me look like I was in the circus.. 

definately a must see.. 

I have also started my 101 in 1001 list.. I had read a friends blog who did it a couple months ago.. and with all these changes happening in my life.. I thought it was perfect time to write down what I want in the next 3 years.. you can find my page located under my blog picture.. 

my olive bear is becoming more independent.. and funny.. and moody.. and I am just trying to get through this next chunk of life moments with as much grace as possible.. thankfully she has mastered saying “no tank you” instead of NO.. which does help.. because it is so sweet to see her use her manners..

I am still in dire need of setting up my nursery.. the daddy doesnt think moving and packing up a room full of crap into the garage is a fun thing to do on a day off.. so it has been put on hold.. but this week.. it will happen.. I can feel it.. 

entering my 23 week of pregnacy.. also came the water weight! my most hated part of pregnancy.. the swollen ankles after work.. getting out of the shower puffier than when I got in.. than lotioning.. and trying to squeeze into a pair of materity pants.. not fun.. I miss the summer days of throwing on a bathing suit and a tent dress.. 

Olives latest friend Mr. Pizza Elmo.. he now has a seat at the table.. and gets bottles before bed.. and LOVES to colour with her.. which is ok.. cause sitting my ace on that tiny little chair isnt the comfiest thing these days.. but the best part has to be hearing her talk to him.. 

oh baby.. its ok.. no.. sit and colour.. here.. come here baby.. 

melts my heart.. 

there is something so sweet about having another person send you photos of your love bug .. I take a million pics of her a day.. most of them mental photographs.. and this one is melting my heart.. 

I love her!

January 24th, 2011

OPERATION DATE NIGHT = finally getting my Pesos nachos.. if you are ever in lower Queen Anne, Seattle.. you must eat at this Mexican restaurant.. I used to eat there literally every week when we lived 3 blocks from it.. by myself.. middle of the day while Dustin worked.. I would walk up.. sit down.. order the best lime margarita I have ever had.. get 2 sent over for free from men I never knew.. take down a whole plate of nachos while getting my drink on.. and walk home..  (clearly this was before I had children).. the waitress would always ask why I was alone.. and I always had to explain I was new to the city.. and had zero friends.. when I always just wanted to be left alone to mow down in peace.. 

last night.. I was able to go back to that moment.. sans margarita.. and it was good.. no.. it was great.. 

we headed over to Gameworks after.. one of those adult game places.. to also finish off an air hockey competition that was left unfinished.. only this time.. he kicked me but every time.. I blame the belly.. and the soar back.. I just wasn’t able to move like I used to.. than we went to the ticket machines.. those are always my favorite.. and we went to one that I remember loving at wonderland.. but could never win the bonus on..  the one where you put in a token.. and this light swirls around a big circle.. and you have to push the button to get the light to stop right in front of you at the bonus.. as I am telling Dustin I have never ever won one of these.. ever! he gets the bonus 4 times.. seriously.. I think his new glasses give him better hand-eye coordination ;) we headed to the prize area.. picked up a harmonica for Olive and some fun maids.. and called it a night.. 

January 23nd, 2011

yesterday was a day I just needed to get out of the house.. trying to rack my brain of things to do in Seattle.. on a Saturday no less.. was hard.. I needed something that wasn’t too busy.. and in the case of Olive wanting to be held a lot.. instead of running around if it was to busy.. because its getting harder to hold her weight up with this new belly.. and her little sister doesn’t like it..  my sister told me to go to the pool.. 

perfect! there is a great one in Mountlake Terrace.. beyond kid friendly.. warm water and a concession stand.. only bad thing.. it started 15 minutes ago.. and its 20 minutes away.. no biggie.. “threw together our crap” is an understatement.. throw her in the car.. and we are off.. and of course.. I needed to get gas.. oh Murphy..  we get there.. and walk up only to see a sign that reads.. 

POOL FULL.. next swim 1:35.. 

lame.. this girl has been talking about going to the pool for the last half hour.. and now.. here we are.. denied.. I even called Dust asking what to do.. so we chose to buy some snacks and wait it out.. the whole hour.. and I had to stare at this heart breaking picture.. and think of a way to explain to her.. why we were on the other side of the glass..

we finally made it in.. only to try and change on soaking wet floor.. with tons of kids running around.. resting on a bench that was uneven and flopping around.. but we made it..  and she loved it.. I didn’t know we all had to line up and wait for “round two” of swimmers to go in.. until I saw one of the lifeguards laughing at me when they announced for everyone to get out.. and I looked very confused.. I thought we just wasted $9.50 on a 7 minute swim.. but.. it just wasn’t our turn..

Olive has turned into a little water baby.. I could barely keep up.. mainly because I was 5 and a half months pregnant.. in the kiddie wading pool.. trying to pull up my bikini bottoms.. and top that I feared was exposing my mama jumbas.. thankfully.. no ones eyesight was injured in the process.. we lasted 40 minutes.. sat in the warm showers for 10 minutes.. and headed home.. only to both conk out for a 3 hour nap.. 

which made it all worth while!!

thank you Mrs. Rosse :)

January 21nd, 2011

 you better start swimmin’ or you’ll sink like a stone.. for the times they are a changin’.. 

this song has been in my head all week.. and those moments that I feel overwhelmed or just plain old tired.. I start to hum it.. and it helps.. 

I have just been in a funk.. trying to grasp onto anything that makes me feel better.. or is inspiring.. I know with this newest addition coming.. there are going to be lots of changes.. and while I am excited and ready for them.. there is always that tiny brain cell in the back of my mind that wonders if I can handle it..  yesterday I watched this 4 times.. I love every word that this man talks about.. every word..

  we are supposed to be getting some sun here soon.. and my skin is aching for it.. I want some colour.. I want some vitamin D that doesn’t come from my prenatal pill ;) 

I found this photo today.. and fell in love right away.. 

I can mentally flash forward my mind here.. in 30+ years.. the husbands are back in the lawn chairs reading their Time magazines or Consumer Reports.. in their high waisted shorts.. and long white tube socks in sandals.. and the woman are just enjoying the water.. trying to get some relief form their heat.. but mostly.. just comfortable in their own skin.. laughing.. talking about the good old days.. 

I try hard not to live too far in the future.. especially this far.. but I am needing something mentally stimulating to grasp right now.. 

well.. I better start swimmin’

some of my pregnancy hormones have been acting up lately.. and you can guess who is getting the brunt of it.. lol

Mrs. Sheer Rage

 

love you

 

Mr. Sheer Rage

morning sunshine..

January 19th, 2011

does it get any better than waking up to sunshine bursting through my thick wooden binds.. well.. maybe if I went to bed before 3:00am.. and wasn’t up at 8.. than yes.. but it did help the getting-out-of-bed process.. I think that three hour nap yesterday really affected me ;)

this morning I jazzed up breakfast with some homemade granola bars! I bought a bunch of delicious ingredients yesterday so they would be more than a box of year old raisins.. and oats.. of course I had the batch made and in the oven before I realized that I had forgot the pomegranate craisins.. my “inspiration” to this whole granola recipe.. oops.. 

look at that morning sunshine pouring in.. I can feel spring coming.. of course I took an after pic of the recipe book.. because who am I kidding.. on 5 hours sleep.. I am not slicing and stacking on a beautiful plate with parchment plate dividers!

shoot.. I just realized I should have added chocolate chips :0

and because my nesting has been wafting two doors down:)  I received a nice big bag of books on my front door step! I am just waiting for Olives nap so I can rip through them and start one.. I love crawling into bed all alone at 8pm.. extra blankets and pillows surrounding my pregnant body.. and diving into a new book.. I don’t do it in the summer months.. I save my magazines for that.. sitting on a lawn chair in the blazing sun.. but winter.. winter equals a nice good read!

today I am 22 weeks.. and with how much this pregnancy slows me down at this stage.. I must get stuff done now before I am inept.. nurseries to be created.. laundry to be done.. and life to organize.. 

and sunshine to walk in.. :)

firsts..

this time.. this is a first for me! not my love child.. I was debating going for an afternoon nap today.. like I do every day.. I have no shame in resting my body while my dishes sit in the sink.. ( just ask Dust ;)  and so I went up.. played a bingo scratch ticket in bed.. than thought.. oh I will just close my eyes.. why not.. I probably wont sleep.. 

this was at 12:30..

I finally woke up to my phone ringing.. it was Dustin.. I just knew it.. I had slept through his other phone calls. and it was 3:58.. I work at 4.. my body had sugar crashed.. and I remember lying there.. with my eyes sealed shut.. my body glued to the bed thinking.. get up.. get up.. open your eyes.. and I couldn’t.. I was frozen.. I finally snapped out of it.. went and grabbed Olive out of bed.. threw on my work clothes.. and made my way down stairs.. and it was ugly.. I remember saying something to Olive along the lines of..

I will give you chocolate m&ms if you put on your own boots!

she had peed through a diaper.. her hair was looking like that of a rats nest.. and she was just as stoned as I was.. only now.. she had chocolate all over her face.. raced to work.. where I was 15 minutes late.. 

my first time ever being late working for Bostons.. in 9 years!

needless to say my shift sucked.. and I could barely function.. I tried to inhale food and Pepsi to get my sugars back up.. and to be half normal.. It was scary.. and I don’t know how it happened..  but I am definitely glad to be home.. resting on the couch.. and done with work!!

flashback.. circa 2005

January 18th, 2011

I woke up this morning with the most peaceful image.. with this second baby on the way.. and trying to embrace the changes of being a mama of two.. I have been thinking back to the beginning of the relationship a lot.. I know that it will never go back there.. but I have been thinking about things we used to do.. 

and the first image in my head was of me and Dust scurrying across the street in Belletown.. him holding my hand. it was just becoming evening.. and the sky was a dark blue.. we were not safely crossing the street to get to the restaurant on the other side.. we were rushing over.. avoiding traffic.. jaywalking.. and it was almost whimsical.. which is how most first events are after getting back together after a 5 month hiatus.. hair flowing so movie-like that you almost swear it was long and covered in sparkles.. he had been living in Seattle for a while.. and this was my first visit down.. and i remember being so nervous.. and was I making the right decision.. and I had never been to Seattle before.. but it all felt so right.. and it felt like I had lived here my whole life.. I remember just knowing my way around the city.. I will never forget the first restaurant we ate at.. Black Bottle.. dark.. candles.. tapas bar.. big glasses of red wine.. in other words.. romantic.. I remember those feelings when everything was magical.. looking at each other.. brushing against one another.. sharing food.. my heart strings were locked in place.. you cant even remember who or what was around you.. because nothing mattered.. it was just the two of us.. sitting there.. re connecting.. I never got tired.. I could stay up for hours talking.. life was carefree.. sixty dollar bottles of wine were always ordered.. life was thoroughly enjoyed.. 

this image woke me up out of my sleep.. out of no where.. that lust for one another that gets lost in the hub of changing diapers.. and just yearning for some alone time.. but at the same time it was comforting.. because I know that one day.. we will be back there.. sharing food over candles.. except now.. we will tell stories of our babies.. and work.. and real life.. and we will hopefully be in Italy celebrating our ten year in style!

table for two..

date night.. round 2..

January 16th, 2011

so after trying to spend more time with my lover.. we came to the realization that we need to throw money at the problem.. thank you Mr. Rosse..  I emailed around and asked some peeps if they would be interested.. once a week for a couple hours.. and we found someone..

this week was our second date night.. after some quarreling the last couple of days.. it was much needed.. I chose bowling.. a couple of games.. sodas.. and a bag of popcorn!!.. this morning we were cleaning out our garage and I gashed my right middle finger.. to the point where it was bleeding for over two hours after.. but I never thought to factor that into the fact that my fingers would be wedged into three holes for an hour.. I picked up the ball and remembered that my wrist has been tweaked since Monday.. and my middle finger was throbbing.. oh.. that and I already had a bowling ball under my shirt.. but.. it was a great time.. we laughed.. we spared.. we talked.. and I felt like I was in high school with my boyfriend.. on a random note.. when did two games of bowling cost $30 American bones!!

oh yah.. extra large soda in a styrophome cup!

Dust wanted to do some friendly wagers.. so I bet what I always bet.. full body massage.. oh yah baby.. and I creamed him 134 to 90.. and it was good..  we headed over for some appies.. where one of our old bartenders was working.. and compt our tab!! thank you Bert!.. we came home to our sweet little Olive talking in the monitor.. she heard the car pull in..

daddy home!! mama home! oh baby.. its ok.. daddy home.. 

it was so sweet.. we had to get her up for snuggles!!

speaking of snuggles.. me and Olive had a lovely little lunch date together.. we rocked it at the old Spaghetti Factory and we even got a booth in the trolley!! there is something about going out with just your little one that is so easy.. when you are there with others.. you want to talk.. and catch up.. but when its just you and the littles.. your attention is on them.. and its just easier and more mellow.. and watching her face light up when the spumoni ice cream came to the table.. was magical.. 

Lucy.. you have some s’plainin to do..

January 14th, 2011

I have been hiding from my blog.. well not hiding.. so much as I now fight for computer time from my 2 year old.. I know right.. my mom is shaking her head as we speak.. I started the really horrible habit of giving olive PBS kids online while she eats.. and she goes into this coma where she is shoveling food into her face and doesn’t realize it.. because the daddy doesn’t come home until 8:30 for dinner.. we aren’t eating family meals together.. and this seems to work.. there.. I justified it ;) 

I tweaked the muscle in my wrist on Monday.. and it is still not back to normal. I cant lift her with it.. I cant get her out of a car without wincing.. and I can barely type on the computer.. the worst though.. has to be lifting my preggo ace around in bed.. and it wakes me up hourly.. oy veh.. yesterday was “that day”.. that shift in pregnancy that you can feel.. the little bump above your vag and under your belly button just kind of pops enough that you are uncomfortable.. and pants fit even worse now.. (can I rock Christmas pjs until May 25th?).. sitting cross leg feels funny.. and my impromptu return to the gym last night felt weird.. the bouncing on the elliptical was not a nice feeling.. and because this baby is sitting lower.. I think she just bounced around on me pelvis for the entire 15 minutes on the machine!!

with all that being said.. I am very happy to be 21 weeks.. bring on the baby!!

my nesting is also at full force.. me.. and dustin.. are lovin it!! fridges are being cleansed.. toys are being put away hourly.. dishes are returning back to their home.. and I am also turning into suzy homemaker.. (well.. my version anyways).. I made my first ever bread machine bread.. and it was good!

I am not to sure why the top never bubbled and browned.. but oh well.. I wont eat that chunk.. the whole house smelled of warm country bread.. the first piece with the crunchy crust.. smothered in butter was worth waiting around the home for 2 hours and 40 minutes.. Olive even wanted in on the action.. and don’t get me started on how good tuna melts were on this bad boy!!

I have also been lounging away on our new couch.. my dream I made a reality.. I have wanted it for a while now.. and due to some very kind financial Christmas donors.. it happened.. getting to Ikea wasn’t the easiest.. getting it home in snow rain wasn’t fun.. setting it up until 12:30 am wasn’t on Dustin’s to do list.. but the after results.. priceless!! how I lived without a chaise lounge before.. I will never know.. 

and there is room for two to snuggle on that bad boy.. 

due to some heart wrenching blood work that Olive had to have drawn :(  we snuggled on here all day yesterday.. a big blanky.. cartoon-ies.. and some chocolate M&M’s to get those sugar levels up ( her.. not me..) it was a fine day.. 

watching my sweet 2 year old 21 lb peanut being held down on a bed.. was way to much for me.. I am all about bettering their health.. and keeping them happy and alive.. but when I over heard the nurses on the phone for 20 minutes.. trying to find out how much blood to take from a 20 pound baby was “safe”.. I could feel the anxiety rolling in.. not being a fan of needles myself did not help.. I couldn’t even be in the room with her.. Dust went in and held her down with all his weight.. and another nurse helped as well.. and she was going nuts.. I just cried outside the door while I watched tears stream down her face.. 

"mama hurt.. hurt.. mama hugs..  no no no.."

I almost got sick.. I had her milk bubbas ready for some comfort after.. and she was distraught.. seeing the gauze and tape on her arm was making her upset.. and I just got the heck out of there and sat in the lobby with her so we could be away from the “drs”.. who gave her “medicine in her elbow”  argh.. 

we came home and just snuggled.. and she eventually came back to normal child life.. but it took a good 5 hours..  I know there are way worse off children going through way worse life events that are awful.. but this way our first encounter.. 

this photo was taken a week ago.. I didn’t have the heart to put her down to snap a photo.. 

and now it is Friday.. always my most hectic day of the week.. getting the house ready for papa to babysit.. getting ready for work.. banking.. bill paying.. the usual weekend wrap up junk.. when all I want to do is sip on my coffee.. and crawl back onto that chaise lounge!!

Happy Friday!

1/11/11

tomorrow.. I am making my first ever bread machine loaf! and I am excited.. I was going to try to make it today before work.. and have dust take it out of the machine.. but than I remembered.. that the best part of homemade bread.. is eating it hot from the “oven” smothered in butter.. 

I have a feeling this isnt going to be part of my diabetic diet :0

and I am ok with that.. 

I love my ones.. (1/11/11) and today I thought something amazing would happen! well.. the day is still long I suppose.. Olive was a cutey pattooty. so I packed her up in the car to get some groceries.. a little later than normal.. because the car seat wasn’t in the car.. and I just dread putting the car seat in.. 

so I procrastinated.. and cleaned my fridge.. good tradeoff!?

we shopped.. she walked around.. she listened.. even sat patiently while the woman bagged my groceries at turtle speed.. and I thought.. what a great day.. I can totally do this with two kids!!I wish they were all like this! maybe its the magic of the ones!!

than

we get to the car and strap her in.. and her 2pm.. 2 hour late nap time kicks in.. she starts screaming like a bangee while I am trying to get her in her chair (with my new carpel tunnel wrist) and the man beside me parked way to close.. so I only got one notch opened in the car door.. she screamed the whole way home..she wanted her bubbas and bed.. all the while I tried to offer goldfish.. and even gave her a gulp of my water bottle.. we got home and I put her in the living room where the tears were a flowing..  and instead of unloading groceries.. I pulled a dirty bottle out of the dishwasher.. gave her the old rinse in the sink.. and tossed her in her crib.. where she was out in 2 minutes.. came down stairs and tried to bring my pregnant stress levels down.. and now I sit in a quiet house.. with no noise.. and fantasize about my fresh white homemade bread that I get to have tomorrow!!

hey.. you cant win ‘em all..

phew.. I am tired..

January 10th, 2011

yesterday was probably one of my busiest days in a year.. all fun stuff.. but busy.. we came home from our date night.. and set up our couch.. much to dustins dismay!! but nesting is nesting! we got to bed late and woke up  early to go to my second gender ultrasound.. (just to confirm) and it is still a little lady! now my mind has fully taken over.. and I am ready to plan!! today.. I am sitting on the couch until work.. and daddy and Olive are going out for the afternoon.. and I get to be alone :)

ahh.. perfection!

ps.. our couch is up.. and huge.. and I am in love.. its a tad large for this space.. but we are just cleansing the rest of our furniture to make it work..  bring on the hours of breastfeeding!!

got beef..

the epitome of lazy…

instead of lifting my pregnant ace off the couch to see if it has finally started snowing.. I looked on my laptop and googled Washington web cams.. and looked at the online cameras.. can I blame this on pregnancy?

haha

on a delicious happy note.. I satisfied my incredible craving of a bacon cheeseburger.. by driving to Five Guys and Fries before our big “snowstorm” hit.. and it was good..it has been in Lynnwood  for a couple months now.. and I have been wanting to try it.. but tonight was the night.. and it flashed my mind forward to summer.. this is the perfect burger to grab and bring to a beach.. brown bag’d.. thick salty fries.. an ice cold coke.. oh yah.. 

my baby wanted beef.. and my baby got it.. 

to some people.. this might look disgusting.. but it is what made me pull on the uggs.. and drive 15 minutes.. 

don’t get me wrong.. its no Dicks Burger in Seattle.. and if you are ever in lower Queen Anne.. you must go get one.. and they are open until 2am.. so there is no excuse.. and their prices are stil stuck in the 70’s.. yes please!

ok.. time to digest.. 

January 09th, 2011

thankfully our snow never stuck around! and I hope that if it comes back this afternoon.. it is in slushy rain form.. because I have plans.. and things Iwant to do..  our only day off last week was consumed with manly football.. but this week.. he is mine!! Ikea.. nursery clean out.. brunch.. IKEA and  date night.. all crammed into one rain-e-licious Sunday.. 

we have FINALLY nailed down a babysitter in this country!! finally should be written twice.. we love her.. Olive loves her.. so much that when we had our Christmas staff party.. she leapt out of my arms and into hers.. (and she had only watched her once!) she is this sweet lovable girl who is going to watch Olive once a week for a couple hours.. so that we can eat.. bowl.. watch a movie.. go to Costco.. go to the gym. ANYTHING.. it feels like Christmas all over again..

confession..

January 08th, 2011

this is what I wish my morning coffee looked like.. when in reality.. its more like this.. 

This morning I woke up really early.. (to olive crying in her sleep) and thought.. just get up.. you had a crap nights sleep anyways.. do something.. (nesting)  so after tossing and turning all night.. I finally got up.. and my new thing to do in the morning.. is my tidy first.. my novelty of making my morning cup of joe.. and computer scanning is getting old.. and I used to use my silent mornings for myself while Olive slept.. but as of late.. I now clean and tidy.. and it almost feels as good for the soul.. almost.. and on this eager morning.. I decided to make Olives breakfast in advance.. why not.. her sausage/hashbrown combo always takes 20 minutes anyways..  so I toss it all in the oven.. clean.. and apparently my little nugget went back to solid sleep.. so it sat there.. and my house smelled like a restaurant.. coffee and sausage.. wafting up my nose.. so I went over and nibbled on some.. ok.. maybe some more.. than I just grabbed a plate and ate the whole thing.. 

and now.. her breakfast round two is back in the oven.. while I listen to her talk in her monitor.. and apparently “mommy is on da phone”

things I am loving.. 

I am also loving the fact that my “daily gossip websites” have now been taken over by reading peoples blogs.. uplifting.. real.. peoples blogs.. and I love it.. which is how me and Mrs. Rosse re-connected.. and after connecting to her sisters blog.. through her blog.. (that is a whole lot of blog) I came across this line her sister wrote.. and it just felt nice..  

my nieces are such beautiful souls - who, like their mother, will probably always be too humble to ever really know the depth of their own beauty

I couldn’t agree more.. now feel better.. and start blogging again ;)

now its time to find a nice saturday morning adventure!!

one of my new years resolution is going to be this.. 

I think everyone should hug like this more!

nursery inspiration..

January 07th, 2011

for the last week or so.. I have actually been getting really excited to get the new babes nursery together.. being a renter.. I have always tried to be somewhat careful with the house I live in.. how many holes I drill into the walls.. curtains that I hang.. but going on year three.. I am ready.. I foundthis picture a couple months ago.. and fell in love.. 

my brain ball is now rolling.. and I want to start.. like.. YESTERDAY!! I get so frustrated that my lifting abilities are limited these days.. and I have to wait for a day off with Dustin to do anything.. but I am ready to start!! and I found a website that describes this whole nursery. colours.. where things were purchased.. and the mama that made the nursery! yes please..

this is Benjamin Moores.. Robins Nest # 618.. and it is taking everything in me to not run to the store right now and buy it!  and the chair fabric is from a store called Calico Corners.. that oddly enough.. we have one here right in our town center!! meant to be.. meant to be.. I am really excited to getmy  this persons ideas put together!

It also makes me want to jazz up Olives room a little bit.. and splash a little colour on those walls as well!! 

you may say I’m a dreamer.. but I’m not the only one..

January 06th, 2011

i thought this was a cute photo.. until I upload it.. and realized it looks like her trying to crawl out of a vagina!!

Today we went to Imagine childrens museum.. a little play date with my child who can now walk.. I say that because last time we were there.. she was not walking.. and I left the building with two arms that felt like jello.. (this is a stroller free zone)..

and let me tell you.. going with a child that can motor around was waybetter.. and I saw things that I hadn’t even noticed last time.. we walked in and right away she clung to my neck.. Lord have Mercy I thought.. I just paid $15.00 (ouch) to get in.. and she is going to want none of it.. so we started to cruise around.. and we saw the giant train set.. it is huge.. and while I could feel myself getting frustrated with a child around my neck.. I stopped.. took a breath.. and literally said out loud..

bring it down to her level..

and so I did.. I just sat on the floor with her while she watched.. and the boys knocked her around.. and she finally realized I wasn’t going anywhere.. and she started to leave my side.. (thank you!) we started to check out some of the other exhibits.. and next thing I knew.. her strut came out in full force.. and its was all “come here mommy” “come here mommy”.. we were on a roll.. 

she loved it.. everything about it.. everything was on her eyesight level.. directed to her age group.. and we had a great time.. I also never realized that there was a downstairs.. so down we went.. and it was a giant craft room! everyone gets to make a craft per day.. and so we went and made a calendar for daddy’s office.. 

I didnt think she would get it.. and boy was i wrong.. she blew me away with how good she sat on the little stool.. she would paint.. and then use felts.. and put them back each time she was done using them.. we used glue sticks.. and stickers.. and we actually walked out of there with a little calendar for the daddy.. 

hello picture 6! a giant connect 4 board!! my favorite game in the world!!

needless to say.. we will be back.. it was fun.. interactive.. and they had that cool dance wall like at science world.. I kept trying to drag her in.. but she wanted the trains :(  Papas gift to Olive this year for Christmas was “quality time” and this will definitely be it.. he is going to get a membership for one year.. and take her as often as he likes for some nice one on one time.. not that he has to take her for a whole year.. lol.. me and daddy will sub in!

and now.. I nap..while she naps.. 

a sneak peak for my new nursery inspiration!!  cause this mama is a nestin’

ahh.. perfection!

summer time.. when the livings easy..

January 05th, 2011

isn’t it crazy how you can just tell this is taken in the morning..

last night at work.. me and a friend were catching up starting work.. and she started talking about summer.. now.. I am all about living in the season these days.. dragging out my Christmas memories.. and getting ready for some nice movie time and cuddles during the winter.. but it was like it took over my actual body.. I could feel the morning spring and summer goosebumps crawling up my arms.. that feeling of waking up warm and hot.. and throwing on a pair of shorts.. and a quick teeth brush.. and no need for make up.. because your skin is glowing and brown.. and then heading out for a walk or to the beach.. choosing a park for the morning before that afternoon sun took over.. and I have to be by water.. baking away on a towel with a baby who this year.. will actually be walking solid.. :)  stocking the cooler with cheezies and a diet coke.. sandwiches.. and goldfish crackers.. bottles of ice water and a pool toy.. 

I am excited.. 

I am also excited for early morning walks.. walking through the town center.. where you watch people setting up their shops.. pulling out goods onto the sidewalks.. with balloons.. watching the early morning servers crawling their asses to the early shift holding their venti coffees because they were out to late.. (been there) and hitting up our spotted cow coffee shop for my sausage breakfast wrap and my iced soy hazelnut coffee while olive runs around excited to be free.. 

I have also finally set up a little station for the bear bear.. it was time.. we made the mistake of buying a glass table top pre child.. and the spills.. and finger marks.. and yogurt spills were wearing on me.. my mama had bought Olive a little table and chairs set for Christmas.. but even for my peanut.. it was too little.. so during my Ikea adventure.. I purchased this gem that I have had my eye on for a while now.. and she is in love.. we set it up together.. and she was so proud and picked out her own chair.. and the other one is now “mamas chair” and the first thing out of her mouth is to colour each morning on it.. and she eats her meals there now.. and it is just her own little station.. 

today I am 20 weeks.. wowsers.. half way there.. and I love that it is flying by.. Monday is our three D ultrasound.. just to really verify those genital bits..  and than it is nursery go time.. well.. open room loft go time.. I am thinking a wall of stripes for this baby.. and I am ready to start making them a little home.. 

hello nesting.. I have been waiting for you!