adapting..

June 09th, 2011

I am a mother of two! and while I thought the cross over would be A LOT harder.. we are truckin along.. of course I have my good moments where I am feeding brixton in one hand and wiping olives toucous with the other.. and managing to hold a phone conversation with my sister.. but there are also many more hair pulling moments where I am trying to double pump.. olive has to go to the bathroom and the baby just wants snuggles :S  but we are starting to find our groove.. and it helps when I use this mantra..

"we are only having two.. we are only having two.."

whether or not this it true? it works for now ;) It definitely makes it all worth while when olive came up to me when I was feeding brixton.. put her arms around the two of us and goes..

mama.. we are friends!!!

gut wrenching I tell yah ;)  

kisses!!

Olive new thing is running around her little kids table yelling “LOOK AT ME” over and over again.. I thought she was just singing a song.. until I realized the lyrics.. :0

I had my first dr checkup for my incision yesterday.. and it went better than I had planned.. I love my nurse and dr so much.. so it was a very bittersweet appointment. because I know I only have one left before  we part ways :( we talked for almost 45 minutes.. and he let me know how upset he was to miss my birth :( and I was one of his favorite patients! he may say that to everyone.. but it made me feel special ;) he also gave me the go ahead for a bath! my favorite thing to do in the world.. so yesterday when Dust got home from work.. I made olives dinner.. and put a DO NOT DISTURB sign on the bathroom door.. I told him I didn’t want to see anyone’s face ;) I ate peanut butter cookies.. drank ice water.. and just relaxed.. it felt great on the engorged over the shoulder boulder holders.. 

I know its hard to believe.. but sometimes I need a break from this face ;)

my sweet sweet baby blessed us with a full nights sleep. I am fully aware that this is a one off.. but thanks to the sweet torrential downpour rain app on Dustins I phone.. we all crashed.. hard.. it was my best sleep in months.. I am hoping she keeps up pace today.. but I know she wont.. so I wont jinx myself.. 

not a fan of mamas pictures.. 

and I will finish off this post with a Kelle Hamton quote.. 

It will come soon enough. And when the time does come, it will be a lot easier letting them go when I know I made the very best of the time they were mine to keep. 

it rings true to me more now that I am finding a balance of two babies that need different kinds of love.. it feels great to be able to get on the ground and play and colour with Olive.. I know she is feeling the love now.. and it melts my heart that she knows she got her mama back!!