disappointment…

March 21th, 2011

today was a sad day for my body.. I went to my massage appointment.. just aching to be loosened up.. I sat in the waiting room patiently.. and in walks this older woman to come get me.. sorry.. who are you?!  I didn’t say anything.. mostly out of confusion.. and she goes ” oh your pregnant!” yes.. yes I am.. 

we walk into the room that hasnt been set up for a prenatle massage.. and she threw a couple pillows on and said she would be right back.. I thought  maybe my massage angel Ann was going to come in.. but no.. it was this other woman.. who CLEARLY has never given a prenatal massage in her life..  it was so bad.. my body was twisted so weird that I ended up hurting my neck even more trying to hold my body in the positions..  I knew I was in trouble when she asked how far along I was..

me- almost 31 weeks!

her- um.. that means nothing to me.. ??

me- oh.. almost 8 months.. 

boo erns.. I asked on the way out where my beloved Ann went.. and the woman tone changed and she just said.. “she is no longer with us”

tear :’(

at least I got to come home to this sweet pea.. her vocabulary is shocking me everyday.. she is loving animals.. (we must get to the zoo asap) and she is singing songs.. and now when she does something she knows if funny to me.. she does it over and over and over again.. its so precious.. 

mama.. I sing you the barney I love you song!

last night while my second love child was going NUTSO in my belly.. she was so jealous watching her mommy and daddy  ooh and ahh over it.. (it was literally throwing my body into the couch.. they were such strong movements).. and so she got on all fours and started crawling.. “look daddy.. I’m a baby!!” 

may 25th cant come fast enough..