March 02nd, 2011
it feels so much more real.. and that she is really coming now that I am in my third trimester.. this baby is going to be a firecracker.. I just know it! when Olive came out.. and I came off my spinal high.. and I was able to just sit and stare into her big dark eyes.. I just knew she was an old soul.. I knew she would be mellow and calm and my shy little sweety..
this one however.. I am sensing polar opposite.. which is great.. cause who are we kidding.. change is good.. different is good..
this baby moves non stop.. I repeat.. non stop.. I may have even been having some braxton hicks.. I say maybe.. because I have never had one before.. it also kind of felt like my endometriosis pain.. so it may just be some of my “cobwebs” stretching out.. (my endo was always on my uterus and bladder)..
this time last pregnancy.. I was ending summer.. getting ready for fall.. cute little jackets.. uggs.. and nice long warm sweaters.. and now I am entering spring.. (well almost) it feels so much better to be entering change.. and trees changing and flowers that will bloom.. sunshine will be a huge blessing.. that’s the first thing I always notice when people post “bringing home baby” shots.. the weather..
** I would like to insert that I have never noticed how addicted I am to the weather network.. until my sisters friend pointed it out.. and it is so true.. i have all the web cams bookmarked**
I am looking forward to having a sweet little baby who gets to be in a onesie and a cute little hat.. instead of layers and worrying if she is to cold.. although I do love my sweet little red noses that come with winter.. I am looking forward to the healing of summer..
look ma! no hands..
as I mentioned the other day.. Mondays Dr apt will be huge for me.. mentally.. I have been asking a lot more questions.. and trying to find alternative answers to if I have to have another c-section.. I have decided to turn to some affirmations.. and just plain old advice that I would give my friends.. this is what our bodies are made to do.. every birth experience is different.. and I will not die! the last one being the biggest ;)
I have been thinking a lot about my experience with Olive.. and I think diet was a huge factor.. my last meal was a bowl of cheerios at 7am November 28th.. my next one wasn’t until the following morning.. and it was liquid diet food crap.. i went 12 hours with gestational diabetes.. shakes.. raging headache that almost turned into a migraine.. they had to keep the lights low for me.. and then I went another 14 hours with nothing in my system but ice chips.. (and those I threw up anyways).. I was then put on a liquid food diet for 3 days.. where my “special treat” was raisins in my oatmeal!!
this time I am going to be my own advocate.. I felt like the nurses at the hospital were my parents.. and I wasn’t allowed to ask questions.. or speak up.. I remember bringing a soother and feeling guilty about it.. and one of the nurses eye rolled me for even having it.. but this time.. I am going to surround myself with things and people that make me happy.. and someone will be sneaking me in mc.nuggets ;) and when that peppy nurse barges in at 5am to give my 10 hour old a bath.. I am going to throw my phone at her.. ;)
on a random note.. I love nurses! I had some amazing ones that changed my whole experience at the hospital.. one woman even pulled up a chair and talked.. and stayed on her shift longer to take out my catheter.. because she knew I trusted her.. and didn’t want the crossover nurse doing it..
the same goes for any situation I guess.. some people can change it for the better.. and some can make you feel like a piece of crap..
my affirmations.. thank you carmen.. I still cant believe you are Tiffs little sister all grown up sometimes..
- My body knows exactly what to do.
- I trust my body
- I welcome my coming labor as the perfect one for me and my baby.
- I am a link in the endless chain of birthing women.
- My baby will be born at the perfect moment.
- I feel confident; I feel safe; I feel secure
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